back to work

its been awhile since i last came back from the trip

haven't gotten the time to add an entry

didn't really feel that there was much to say

since i was just, trying to adjust back to work

not that it was tough adjusting...

perhaps its more like i didn't feel like it...


was thinking of a few things lately

not exactly very happy with my personal conclusions

but seems like, they are the right decisions

often, the right decisions are hard to follow through with the right actions

and the body is too weak while the mind is willing


one of the decisions of not getting too committed in life...

of thinking twice of what i truly think is what i want,

and then the thought and question of trust and sensitivity

the idea of friends and foe

true and false

real and unreal

you or me...


office feels kinda quiet without a partner

she's been sick, for a while now...

touch wood its not a curse of the company

of whatever happens...

well, to begin with, the company was made up of workaholics

she didn't change us, we just made her look like she is the slave driver

but in reality, we just use her as an excuse...


melancholy thoughts are all over the head...

Don't feel the need to brush them aside

neither the desire to freshen the spirits...

let me lie here in the silent waves of mercury detachment

sinking me with the weight of its dense unhappiness

i feel neither rock bottom nor afloat...

just gently locked in the inbetweens of loss and rapture


slow movements brings about calmness of the mind

slow verses staleness,

blink

i watch the rest of everyone move ahead and behind

staleness verses a waste of effort

i stayed in the same axis

from the beginning to the end

indifferent i paused and let the dense emotion overwhelm me

it didn't move me

i remain the same...

from the beginning to the end

...end.